Dance

I'm sooo inspired by this video...
Got Seh. Superb.

Damn Happy.

I'm damn happy last night, very very happy..
I keep smiling non-stop =) =) =P
And wow, there are people around the world who have really cool dance moves for that song. =)

Baked my clay yesterday!! Yippee!!
The moment I stepped into office, I kena suan-ed by Hwee Leng, wah someone today feels very hot, need to turn down the air-con temperature. lol. and my hair today, lol..

Last Night... I Couldn't Even Get An Answer...

Love. Angel. Music. Baby.

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This song has a super cool beat and it rocks my house..
I want the MP3 for this!!! Someone please??... *winks*
This video is a bit 'delayed', but the best version I could find. Sobz.

If I Told You Once,
I Told You Twice
You Can See It My Eyes
I'm All Cried Out
With Nothing To Say
Your Everything I Want It To Be
If You Could Only See
Your Heart Belongs To Me
I Love You So Much
I'm Hurting For Your Touch
Come And Set Me Free
Forever Yours I'll Be
Baby Won't You Come
And Take This Pain Away

***

I Need You
And You Need Me
This Is So Plain To See
And I Would Never Let You Go
And I Will Always Love You So...I Will
If You Could Only See
Your Heart Belongs To Me
I Love You So Much
I'm Hurting For Your Touch
Come And Set Me Free
Forever Yours I'll Be
Baby Won't You Come
And Take This Pain Away
***

Super Lun Zhun..

I'm not known as a Sotong for nothing.

On Tuesday night, I told myself remember to bring my notes for my class on Wednesday in the morning. True enough, in a rush, I forgot to bring it out of my house yesterday morning. *sigh* My only hope was Jean, if she was coming to town, she could pass it to me.

LOL, ok she really did come to town in the evening, passed it to me, so I went for class, I had already bought my dinner, then I realized the usual classroom was occupied for another module? Hmm, then I checked with the lady there, err, there is no class today?! *walau* So I went home loh, waste my time & money on transport and food, wth. If this is not Lun Zhun, I dont know what it is..

Spent time doing Clay Lentils all night!! =) I'm gonna post pictures of our creations soon after it has been baked. Woohoooooooooo.. Its so fun doing it lah.. Haha.. Keep rolling, rolling, rolling...

I dont know why when I drink, my face becomes damn red, and I mean REALLY RED. *wonders* We dropped by Brussels Sprout for a beer, wahaha, the bartender's name very cute - VERT. Carol cannot remember his name easily at first, so just think of the word "pervert" can liaoz. LOL. And he shine his torchlight directly on my face to see how 'red' my face is, and he cant believe why my face can become so red.. I just happily blamed it on my genes. LOL.

Jane Mommy also very vain now lor, highlight, necklace and your DKNY watch, walau damn chio. Hee, actually, we cannot bring in outside food, but since got birthday, nvm la. The power of ladies. They even served us plates for our mini birthday cake celebration. Really forgot to take pictures, damn it. What a waste. I think we were creating a lot of noise down there and scared the whole crowd away. =P

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again to Carol & Jane Mommy!! =) One year older already, please behave ok..

Laugh

I laughed to myself non-stop, and I'm sort of having the runs today. Argh. First, it was Melvin's dream that made me laugh damn hard (until my stomach damn pain lor), followed by stupid simon's interpretation of the dream.

This one, I have only myself to blame, lol:

Flying Baby....:
carol asked if u wanna fish for a whale?!
acid burn ~ Toni:
fish?!
for wat? guys?
Flying Baby....:
u too slow... not fun lah..yr frequency always off!!!!
acid burn ~ Toni:
lol
acid burn ~ Toni:
sorry
i saw fish for a while
LOL
Flying Baby....:
KNS!!!
acid burn ~ Toni:
lol
lol

wahahaha, what is WRONG with me?! Initially, I really thought she meant "fish for a while". I was thinking why on earth would she want to go fishing for awhile first before going out?! OMGOMGOMGOMG.

Ok, stop laughing at me now. Stop it. *bleah*

Busy Weekend

Friday
It all started with Friday night, had dinner followed by DOTA (just 1 game, and I was the leaver as well, cos started LATE loh, and then had to rush off), then watched the movie - HairSpray! LOL! Nice show! Some people found it draggy, but I thought it was pretty nice, Link was sooo damn cool and cute. Haha, Jane mommy wanted me to go drink with her with e rest, but my movie ends late lah. Sorry! Next round k? =) Thanks ZM for organizing it with the Settlers' gang. =)

Saturday
Went for some Pilates trial session, followed by shopping at Future State and Watson's again, omg! This is not good, not good at all.. Burnt a further hole in my pocket. Zzzz....... Ate with my mama for dinner! Been such a long time since I last visited her already. Her Peranakan food rocks! Authentic good stuff! At night, had further 4 hour DOTA session with new gang, humkia and the rest, till 3am loh.. Thanks for asking me to join in. My Dark Seer and Morph not bad hor.. DBL KILL ok. Jio me for more games k? :P

Sunday
My client asked me out, for bowling and she sure had A LOT of friends. omg. I was shocked when she asked me out for bowling actually. She introed me her husband, her cousin & family, her good fren, her make up artist, her sec school friend. OMG. And I got to know a few new people, no time to get to know all of them. Realized the power of networking, all looked forward to seeing me again during the next outing. Yippee! Bowling score: 99, same as my client. So Qiao. Following that, I went for a movie - Blood Brothers. Dont bother watching it..

Realization
I realized that regarding what had happened, my friends only heard from my point of view, only heard what I said, nobody heard from his viewpoint. And so far, I think he had never spoke bad about me. I think. So, I'm probably not as good as what you guys think.
*There are always two sides to a coin.*

Friends
I was glad that during the past weekend, there were friends who kept me company, and gave me calls to see if I was doing ok. Thanks guys for all your support. Appreciate it. =)

Mummy asked me a weird question in the car, and I'm still feeling shocked from it.

Couldn't Control The Tears

Tears just rolled down uncontrollably this morning, when I sent an sms to my Mummy. I thought I was handling it good all the while, then this morning ... Mummy asked me to go home for dinner today, but I dont want, cos I will start thinking when I get home. But I still think that overall, I am coping very well with it, so hey, give me some credit & encouragement on this k.

I was very angry last night for a moment, when I got to know about something. Lies. Why LIE, is there even a need to, even at this moment? I hate Liars, I really do. Admitting is one thing after that, but why lie in the first place? *Am I That Hard To Understand?*

On impulse, I made a call, it didn't get through. Then I stood back and think, "Why should I even bother getting so affected about it?" It made no sense to me now, so I just tried ignoring it and literally tried throwing my emotions away and concentrate on sleeping instead... and I did, and started dreaming again... Zzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Met up with some of my ex-colleagues yesterday, at some high-class Italian restaurant. All asked me if I'm doing okay or not, and what happened? I knew them very well, sure LATE ONE. LOL. Wanted to go Makansutra, then rain leh. Heng, we had not started eating yet. haha...

Talk talk talk, then got to know my ex-boss actually sent regards to me, I was like "Wow, thanks!" Nice to hear, felt good. Then they told me eh, heard ex-boss got tell me some 'theories' ah last time, I was like ya lo ya lo, so I explained the theory that he told me last time, during my ACCA exam study period haha... He and his theories, well I'm not surprised, he came up with a patented methodology, so I do respect him for that.

Result of meeting up: Talking talking, walking walking, shopping shopping, and I came home with 2 new pairs of Charles & Keith shoes, that woman la, drag me inside, then say "eh you sure you dont want to see see is it? got 30% leh." zzzzzz... actually I dont wanna buy one lor, I've been spending too much. *purposely tempt me* I bought more shoes than her somemore. zzzzzzz........

If any of my friends are reading this bloggie, just flood my comments below this if you wish to.. All are welcome! =)

This Is It. . . .

Well. This is It.

I've lost my relationship that I had built up over 8 years, a relationship where I had put my heart and soul into. It is very painful, and there's a big sense of loss to what I had built up over the years, both sides' families (We even went for holiday trips together), our mutual friends (I think just in friendster alone, can hit 70 over, omg! imagine the actual numbers), over the different crossroads of life, studying as a teenager, till army, till uni, till working life as a adult. Imagine what the two people have gone through together as a couple, being there for each other all the while.

Everyone, and I mean everyone, whom we both know, ask the same question over and over again, when we meet them: "Eh, when are the both of you getting married?" Or if we meet one, without the other, people will ask "Eh, where is your other half?" We are seen/ known as an item, without further probing, like it is some sort of default setting, lol. It isn't easy to get to that stage, and I can say I was really proud and glad it did come to that stage, proud of myself, cos it shows how much you put into maintaining friendships with each other's friends.

This relationship almost went to the next stage where it will be either engagement/ marriage. If he chose me, I would have taken it with open arms, and possibly even get married to him, despite what had happened. It may have been brought across to some/ him that I'm an unreasonable girl friend, but reflecting back, I still say I put down all my Pride and Dignity to make it work, and it seems the problem doesnt lie with me anymore. So it doesnt matter to me now whoever thought I was unreasonable.

Well, you get what you give, I hope. I believe I'll be able to find another better person in future, who is capable of cherishing me as his love, and not come to a point where, "Hey I have met another person whom I'm also very comfortable with, could this person be the one for me instead, and start to consider once again??" There will always be another someone whom you can get really comfortable with, but at the end of the road, are you comfortable with the one you're with? Why then is there a need to change? *The grass is always greener on the other side.*

*Wonders* Do it once, do it twice. -> This always happen to my customers, if you entertain their ridiculous requests once, when you should not even be entertaining in the first place, it will definitely happen again, like asking me to go back end to amend the database, just cos my ex-colleague did it for them, then they come and ask me "Why cant you do it?"

Talking about long relationships, I believe that going down the road, say 5-6 yrs in the relationship, everyone who had gone that far, would realize that its natural for the two in e r/s to be comfortable for each other and tend to take things for granted to a certain extent, and as I said, it is only natural. Its how the both make things work/ give and take, and not start to just consider another person, just for the sake of doing so. I think every couple is like this, including my parents, as I said, it is only natural.

Frankly, I do not know how long this is gonna take to heal from this, and go into another r/s. It really isnt easy, not easy at all. For this person became a major part of my life, and he really did. I was only stupid in not being more suspicious, and letting things evolve, but I will still refuse to be so suspicious over my next r/s, trust has to be given to each other, trust has to be built up.

If I do meet my next one, I'll be determined to make it work, I hope. :) I have to start all over again, it will be hard, but I pray that my next will be able to give me the support that I need, to make it work.

Thank God for letting me detect the signs during my past weeks, once again, and giving me the push factor to take the drastic measures, which is very evident, and in doing so, I hope it will make me feel better, at least now I'm doing something for myself. It takes me a LOT (our close friends can vouch to this!) to give up on a person actually, and especially more so...... if he is your loved one......